Websters dictionary defines Trust as
1. an assured reliance on someone or something.
2. a dependance on something future or contingent.
3. an equal right or intrest in something of value.
I, however cant seem to Trust God with everything. I have doubts about anything and everything. Just one thing after the other. I tell Him i trust Him with everything, then 2 days later im second guessing myself and i feel foolish. I really want to live freely and not have to worry about the things of this world. Recently a bunch of school friends, relatives, people i know have got engaged or married. I myself have had no relationships in a long long time. I look at the happy faces i see in pictures and want that for myself. I might be a little jealous but sometimes admitting it helps in the healing process. My cousin got married and she turned 39-40ish. (not sure the correct age) Shes had to wait for almost half of her life to fine someone. I respect a person of character like her for waiting so long. She seems to be very happy that she waited all that time for a spouse. Its stories like this that make me want to wait for mine, then i get discouraged a day or two later and then i feel like i cant be happy with that choice.
I wrote this back earlier this year and just had not published it yet.
We all go through times like that. I know I have. But we should never let those times define us. Our God is faithful and we have to remind our-self (and the devil) of that daily. If you have surrendered then say you have and continue to put it in His hands. It make take once it may take a hundred, but be willing to keep moving in that direction.
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